Interview with a Fat Man

I currently live in Scioto County, Ohio, about 30 minutes from where I grew up in Kentucky. On November 9th, I have an interview for a position in Lake County, Ohio -- its the county east of Cuyahoga (Cleveland) and about as far away as I can move and still be in Ohio (about 4.5 hours away).  I think they are interviewing 5 people and since I have no networking connections, it will be a struggle to get this position and even if it is offered they will need to offer me a bit more money then they advertised to make it an affordable move.   I would like to move to a bigger city, but Columbus and Cincinnatti would have been closer to family and friends.  I have not interviewed for a job since I did so for my current position 3 years ago, and that interview was with people I already knew and who already knew my capabilities.  I hope I am now to the place where I may still be seen as a bigger guy, but where my weight will no longer be an obsticale preventing others from considering me.  It is a fact, obese people make much less then those otherwise equal.  They also get fewer job offers, promotions and bosses (maybe for legit reasons) fear they may cause health insurance cost to rise. Maybe this will be a good practice interview for me, for when a position closer to the southern Ohio cities opens up. Maybe I will like the people and pay there and decide to make the bigger move now if the position is offered.  Whatever, I am not letting my appearance hold me back like I may have 2 years ago.

Yesvember

While I am going to limit certain foods this month that have been tripping me up, I am not going to just say No to them.  I have been struggling the last few months and I have gained 18 pounds since my low weight of the year. I would have responded with a spartan mentality before, but I don't have to do that now.  So Cheese, Ice Cream and Chocolates are banned from my home this month.  But I have 2 parties and a weekend trip where I may have those things. 

Our Deepest Fear —Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same
As we are liberated from our own fear, Our presence automatically liberates others.

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Sometimes Mother Theresa or Nelson Mandela are given credit for this poem, but they were only quoting Marianne Williamson.  If it sounds familiar otherwise, you may have heard it in one of a few movies its been used in, Coach Carter being one.

Ok maybe I am Dead, but Zombie Dead, not Dead Dead, wait aren't Zombies Undead?

You guessed it, I have been in a funk lately.  My neck is hurting worse with cooler weather then it did 3 months ago.  It is now 5 months after the accident and I still wake up in the middle of the night with neck pains.  I go to see my doc again in November.  I don't want to be on pain killers, but topical over the counter stuff and bayer don't seem to be helping.  I have let this pain move up my neck into my brain.  I still get compliements on how great I look, but I am in a battle now.  My left wrist is also still bothering me some.  Gotta get my head on right and just deal with this, especially if it going to be something I have to deal with in the long haul.

Open to Receiving Something New

They put in a new kitchen floor in my apartment today.  I may be getting a new water heater soon as well.  I did not ask for either, but my floor was getting pretty wore. New things come our way and we don't always appreciate it, we even see it as an inconvience at time.  I am happy to have new floors and I hope my landlord considers new carpet in the future.

Food & Exercise Journal

I use to keep a food and exercise journal on Spark People, but since I am not active there at the moment I am adding one here for me to review.  I will figure how to set in up Monday and then Tuesday start it offically.  Tuesdays will be my weigh in days also and I will post there,  periodically I will also post here.

update on 10/31/09:  I have not done this, starting on Nov 1

Carts and Baskets

I always try to use a basket instead of cart when shopping, you burn a few more calories carring your stuff around.  Today was colder, but not a winter or thunderstorm day --- still it amazes me how few people who get carts actually put them in one of the cart corrals.  So I am taking the opportunity to put a cart up after I park and before I head in to the store. 

Steps and other daily opportunities allow us to burn a few more calories each day, I won't let myself miss these opportunities if I can.